For its therapeutic effects

Anak ng pitumpu't pitong puting tupa naman! Sana mag May 14 na!

Lord, hindi ko pa po mawari sa ngayon kung bakit at paano ko inattract itong bwakanangsheet na challenge na ito sa buhay ko. Pero since nandito siya I guess ready na ako para harapin ito kaya salamat na din po.

The last time I felt this way (i.e. just about ready to volunteer to die) was when I was organizing the Season 2 ( o 3 ba yon? sa kawindangan ko i forget.) special show of Wazzup, Wazzup. Although hindi ko pa naman naaabot yung feeling of hopelessness na naramdaman ko matapos magrequest ng red carpet at bar stools sa props division ng ABS at malamang ako nalang ang natira sa TOC dahil lahat ng staff ay nasa greenbelt na kaya kailangan kong buhatin lahat yon. Buti nalang umapir si Kuya Bong from out of nowhere para tulungan ako. (Kuya Bong I labs you!)

There were times na I felt I was about to snap though. Pero buo pa naman ako. Humihinga pa. Buhay pa. At sabi nga nila habang may buhay may apoy, este, pagasa. At di din naman nagkulang si Father God sa pagpapaalala na suportado niya ako 100 and 10 percent. Ako lang daw kasi matigas ang ulo.

So sa lahat ng mga kaibigan kong sumuporta, nagtetext sa akin ng mga bandang 11:30 ng gabi habang ako'y nago-OT at sila'y nasa bahay na. Ang mga nagwa-ym ng mga motivational lines. Sa mga nagsasabing, "Kaya mo yan!" at "I believe in you!" when I forget to believe in myself. Salamat.

Special mention na din kay Chris at Tin na walang sawang nagtetext sa akin na magrelax lang at magpray at wag masyadong pa-gwapuhin ang mayor ko.

Special mention din kay, Nhinya, who understood why I couldn't meet her nung umuwi siya galing Singapore and for believing in me. Mauna ka na mag graduate school, Nhinya-pot. hehe.

Special mention din kay Aves. Those were very inspiring words, Aves. I can't tell you enough how grateful I am. And the e-card was the icing on the cake.

Special mention to my Banahaw family. You guys know who you are. I love you! Mwahugs!

Maraming salamat din sa mapagmahal kong mga magulang at kapatid na minove ang pagpunta sa Laiya dahil di ako makakasama. Awww moment yon for me.

At siyempre Sayo, Lord. Lupit mo magmahal talagang grow or die. O siya, I trass You na. I surrender to You. Salamat sa iyong Love. Salamat sa suporta. Salamat sa lahat.

Salamat for this award!

I deserve the best and I accept it now. Thanks for this opportunity to further refine myself.

(Frank was right, this is therapeutic. Well, back to the grinder.)


Comments

  1. Rory LambinoMay 2, 2008 at 2:41 PM

    kaya mo iyan chong. :p

    ReplyDelete
  2. red pasetesMay 2, 2008 at 2:47 PM

    haha. salamat!

    ReplyDelete
  3. x yMay 2, 2008 at 3:00 PM

    o diba? nagka oras ka bigla....hehe.. :D

    ReplyDelete
  4. chapi chapsMay 2, 2008 at 3:09 PM

    Red, forget the past, don't let the mole haunt you. :)

    ReplyDelete
  5. red pasetesMay 2, 2008 at 4:41 PM

    haha. tama ka chaps, nakaraan na si nunal. :)

    ReplyDelete
  6. red pasetesMay 2, 2008 at 4:43 PM

    napapanahon na kasi. haha.

    ReplyDelete
  7. gianne carlaMay 2, 2008 at 4:44 PM

    miss you kuya! =)

    ReplyDelete
  8. red pasetesMay 2, 2008 at 4:45 PM

    ikaw man, kapatid ay miss ko na. punta kayong sunken bukas. may flag football. hehe.

    ReplyDelete
  9. gianne carlaMay 2, 2008 at 4:46 PM

    unga noh!?! sige2... sino2 kayo?

    ReplyDelete
  10. x yMay 2, 2008 at 5:15 PM

    kami and a few friends...sama mo na rin si nina, antagal na nya sinasabi na sasama sya..haha.. :D

    ReplyDelete
  11. gianne carlaMay 2, 2008 at 5:17 PM

    hehehe... uba i will... =) wat time ba?

    ReplyDelete
  12. x yMay 2, 2008 at 6:05 PM

    8 am sa sunken

    ReplyDelete
  13. gianne carlaMay 2, 2008 at 6:14 PM

    aga ampfness! hehehe

    ReplyDelete
  14. Sheila SawitMay 2, 2008 at 7:05 PM

    kapatid, kayang-kaya mo yan! madami tayong gala pagkatapos niyan, hehe...

    ReplyDelete
  15. red pasetesMay 2, 2008 at 7:21 PM

    salamat! oo nga eh. dadating din tayo diyan. lalampasan ko muna ito. :)

    ReplyDelete
  16. Josef Frank RegisMay 3, 2008 at 11:43 AM

    Thanks for the share Red. Somebody out there needs to hear that. When we tell our "wins", we support and inspire others. Keep on sharing "wins", guys. And keep on healing "losses", specially relationship losses.

    ReplyDelete
  17. Jeco PlacioMay 4, 2008 at 12:47 PM

    Ay sorry, na-lost ako sa sirkulasyon.
    Anong meron sa 14? Kaya mo yun pero anong meron?

    ReplyDelete
  18. red pasetesMay 4, 2008 at 1:46 PM

    Thanks din po, Tito Frank. It also feels good to share.

    ReplyDelete
  19. red pasetesMay 4, 2008 at 1:47 PM

    May 14 ang aking liberation day. Ang pagtatapos ng pag manage sa inoorganize naming events for our sister lgus.

    Salamat sa vote of confidence. Todo na to!

    ReplyDelete
  20. nhinya dyMay 4, 2008 at 11:31 PM

    Kuya Red! I'm sorry I felt like I was the one who wasn't able to make enough time to meet you nung umuwi ako... anyway, I'll be home in July so maybe by then makapag roadtrip tayo heehee :p

    ReplyDelete
  21. red pasetesMay 5, 2008 at 10:22 AM

    asows! okay lang, nhinya-pot. malas lang. we'll have our time. pagbalik mo sa july pwede na tayong mag road trip anywhere! haha.

    ReplyDelete
  22. Debed DaberaJune 7, 2008 at 5:37 PM

    ako yun!!! isa ako sa nagy-ym!!! promise ako yun!!! nakita nyo ba pangalan ko? ay nde ba nabanggit?...siguro kse sabi ko kay red porn lang ang sagot sa stress nya nun...sorry po Lord!!! next time nde ko na po sya tuturuan ng kabulastugan para mamention na name ko!...haaaaay!

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

I'm half gay. That makes me 1/4 female.

(Inspired by a conversation with Angge last Sunday and Jeco's Guilty Pleasures.) That's what I told people back in college when they asked me why I was the way I was. Now, I conveniently tell people, "Mass Comm ako eh," to explain why I can appreciate the clothes worn by the characters in Sex and the City The Movie. But those are just excuses. They say it's being in touch with my feminine side. Well, whatever. I read Sweet Valley Twins and Sweet Valley High back in elementary school along with my Marvel and DC comics. I never got into that Hardy Boys bit though. I played and still play basketball, tatsing, habulan, luksong baka, soccer and other physical sports. But I also played and would probably still play 10-20 and Chinese garter. I've cried and will probably still cry in some movies (Patch Adams immediately comes to mind) and have voluntarily watched my fair share of chick flicks. But I didn't flinch during the battle scenes of Braveheart and haven
Read more

Adventure update

After a week it seems that, aside from me and Frank, no one else could commit to a November 30 trip. We kinda forgot that most of our media practitioner friends do not have holidays and often have work on Saturdays. Therefore, we have decided to reschedule the trip. However, kami naman ang di pwede ng December 2, which is when most of you can go. Hehe. In any case, paguuntugin muna namin ulit ni Frank ang ulo namin to come up with a schedule and itinerary that will benefit the most people (note: most, hindi lahat, as we have agreed that it's impossible to please everybody). we will inform you ASAP what we come up with. Oks ba yon? Maraming salamat. :) Meanwhile, Tarra has an outstanding invitation to watch Enchanted. Anyone want to watch a movie? Moreover, I heard through the grapevine that Tarra is going to organize an Enchanted Kingdom trip. Di ba Tarra? Hehe.
Read more

Inanities

You told me to sit still. And I tried and did for a while. But then a twitch and an itch happened. And stillness eluded me. So go back to being still, you said. But running and jumping seemed so fun. I thought you'd get angry but you just watched. Aren't you going to stop me? I asked. A simple no you uttered. You're free to do what you want, you said. So I ran and I jumped and turned cartwheels and all. And I felt free. I felt light. I felt right. Then I got tired and my jump became a skip. My run became a walk. And I turned to you and asked, May I sit once more? You smiled and pointed beside you. My child, your spot has been waiting for you Until you have chosen to sit once more. That's what you said. And I walked towards you, With your hand you reached out. Sit here with me, you said. Sit and be still. And I tried and I did. And rest came to soothe my weariness. And balance asked if it may sit with me. And you smiled. And I felt free. I felt light. I felt right.
Read more