Scenes from my so-called life

Sa ngayon ay wala na siya. Alaala na lamang ang natitira. Ngunit mula sa abo na sa ngayon ay kanyang kinahinatnan ay babangon at magsisimulang muli. Hindi ito ang katapusan. Ang bahay na pinuno ng pagmamahal, kailan man ay hindi mabubuwag o masisira. Tila ito'y pagbabago lamang ng anyo ng bahay na pagmamahal ang nagbuo. Ito ang akin - ang aming - tahanan. Sa iba ay Sanctuario ang naging ngalan. Hindi, hindi pa ito ang katapusan ng bahay na binuo ng pagmamahalan.

It is when I am before the vastness and beauty of Mother Nature that I feel insignificant and valuable at the same time. Insignificant because in the face of such abundance and immensity, I realize that I am a mere speck in the stream of Life. Valuable because there comes this knowing, this feeling that despite being miniscule compared to the grand scheme of things, I am guided, protected and loved by a Higher and often Unseen Power. I marvel at the truth that in this big Universe I have been deemed deserving of so much beauty and potential. And I cannot help but be grateful that this mere speck has the glorious right to be here and be loved. And the good news is such a right is afforded everyone.

Ngayong eleksyon, madami akong nakikilalang nakaka-inis na tao. At mayroon din yung talagang bwakanang-siyet na lang. Ngayon, yung mga supplier na dinadaan sa pagpapacute ang mga bulilyaso nila, bwakanang-siyet yung mga ganon. Hello! May usapan na nga eh tapos biglang ngayon magiimpose ng kung ano-anong request. Kung di mo pala kayang tumupad sa usapan e di sana sinabi mo nung una nang hindi ikaw ang kinuha namin. Pero siyempre di pwede yon di ba? Sayang yung perang galing sa amin. Kaya nag-magaling ka. Eh nagmamagaling ka yun pala hindi ka din uubra pag oras na ng implementation. Kaya tayo naiipit eh. Lalo na ako! Nakakalbo na ako sa kakaayos ng mga problemang dinadala mo. Tapos ngayon, ano, may bagong problema ka na namang ihahain? Tapos sa akin mo pa gusto ipaayos?! Teka lang, ako (kami) ang kliyente a. Kami ang nagbabayad bakit kami mamomroblema? Bwiset! Kung tutuusin hindi ko problema na wala kayong pondo para sa manggagawa niyo. Ang linaw ng usapan natin, 50% down, 50% u

Gotta get out of my comfort zone.

...but nothing comes to mind. Existentialism at nine in the evening doesn't appeal to me either. Maybe I just ought to go home, but staying late at the office seems to have become a habit of mine. I wouldn't know what to do when I get home. Sleep, maybe. I so miss that. That and staying in bed during the morning.  I ought to go take a vacation. A quick escape might do me good. I'm confoosed.. Crap!

"Had dinner yet? I'd invite you out for coffee but then you don't drink the brew. " Message sent. Message alert tone. "No, but some cafes have fruit shakes, right? Pshaw with cafes though. I'm hankering for some pasta." Reply. "You're always hankering for some pasta. Throw in some pizza and you've got a dinner companion." Message sent. Message alert tone. "Why would I want you around for dinner?! ;). Well, I guess having someone to talk to while munching on some fettuccine would be nice. It's a deal then. Pizza for you and pasta for me." Reply. "You are so sweet, you know that? The usual place then? I'll be there in 15." Message sent. Message alert tone. "See you there. :)" Reply. "Don't take eons, okay?" Message sent. Message alert tone. "Oh, hush! Get a move on!" Smile.

I don't know what to make of this whole elections hullabaloo. It has brought me stress, bouts of insanity, confusion, bouts of despair and more stress. Why I haven't quit just yet? Perhaps maybe I have really gone insane and/or have turned to a masochist. But seriously, maybe it's because I have chosen not to leave the people I'm working with hanging. I have no wish to abandon them. And I have no wish to give up just because times are tough. I want to add to what I know (or remember what I already know) and make myself better. I have chosen to see this through and I have chosen to stick to my choice. Besides, this whole ordeal also holds a lot of things I could be grateful for. I have been meeting a lot of people - most of them successful and wealthy - and I've been learning from them. I am hoping their winning attitude will rub off on me. I have been learning new skills like high stakes haggling. I had never expected that I'd one day be talking to suppl

This morning, I asked My to help me chant that I would be able to handle everything that I would need to finish for today and tomorrow. I also told her that I was under a lot of stress and that I was starting to lose my composure. She told me that she could not believe such a thing could be possible since I'm a bundle of sunshine (says her.) That made me smile and it helped ease a lot of the tension I'd been feeling. I love my friends. Yey to them! :)

(About last Sunday) Someone proposed and someone said yes. I was just told about it this morning by the one who said yes. It was such wonderful news to receive. This year has started out great and it holds a lot of promise for greater things still. Someone really close to me is getting married soon. I feel so happy and proud. Congratulations N and G! (About today) I guess it's true what my contemporaries are saying. We are at the marrying age. First, I found out J proposed to I last December and they are getting married in November this year. Then, N texted me one Sunday morning, telling me that G proposed - when they are getting married, I don't know yet. Now, E.1 has sent me an e-mail inviting me to her wedding to E.2 in April. I'm happy for all of them, of course. And no, there's no hint of bitterness or whatever there. Before I was attending debuts. Now, I'm attending weddings. I've attended baptisms before but then I'm guessing I'll be attending

I guess it's true what my contemporaries are saying. We are at the marrying age. First, I found out J proposed to I last December and they are getting married in November this year. Then, N texted me one Sunday morning, telling me that G proposed - when they are getting married, I don't know yet. Now, E.1 has sent me an e-mail inviting me to her wedding to E.2 in April. I'm happy for all of them, of course. And no, there's no hint of bitterness or whatever there. Before I was attending debuts. Now, I'm attending weddings. I've attended baptisms before but then I'm guessing I'll be attending more of those too. How time flies. But hey, all is swabe!

Someone proposed and someone said yes. I was just told about it this morning by the one who said yes. It was such wonderful news to receive. This year has started out great and it holds a lot of promise for greater things still. Someone really close to me is getting married soon. I feel so happy and proud. Congratulations N and G!

Ang tagal ko nang nakatunganga lang rito pero wala pa din akong maisip na magandang ideya para sa artikulong dapat kong isulat (at hindi ito yon, tumatakas lang ako). Kung tutuusin madali lang naman ito, ewan ko lang kung bakit inatake na na naman ako ng katamaran. Maraming panahon naman na masipag ako, ewan ko kung bakit pa ako tinamaan ng pagkatamad ngayon. O baka nagdadahailan lang ako dahil talagang tamad ako. Wala naman akong napapala habang nakatingin sa kawalan. Mas mabuti pa yatang nilaan ko na lamang ang panahon na ito sa pagtulog o kaya'y pagninilay.  Aysus! Malamig na kape ko at minumura na ako ng konsensya ko, magtanim nalang daw ako ng punong kahoy kesa tumanga. At least daw nakatulong pa akong labanan ang climate change.  Sadya lang sigurong may araw na ganito. Yung wala lang, ganon na lang. Sana pala inisip ko na lang kung paano lutasin ang world hunger. Baka sakaling may napala pa ako. Hay life, masaya ka pa din.

I've gotten rusty. Before, writing came as second nature, almost like breathing even. But now, I'm often stumped. I don't know if it's because I am bursting with ideas that I don't know what to write about first or because I've allowed myself to become stagnant by not writing for long periods of time. Or maybe it's because I've grown used to writing articles for work. That's not exactly as fulfilling as writing to express myself or writing to be creative. All excuses, I know. I have got to get myself back and I guess starting this blog is a step towards that direction. Write, write, write and write some more. That ought to be my way to go. I have allowed myself to slip. It's time to climb back up. A teacher of mine, who has always taught me things I needed to learn, once told me that to be a good writer I must have the discipline to write every day. I must set aside time each day to write anything, even if I don't feel like it. By doi

"Sometimes all one needs is for someone to remind him or her that everything is going to be okay. Never mind the hows and the other details. People just need to believe, to trust, and they can go on." - musings while commuting back to LB It helps to have friends around. Despite the stresses and pressures of life, friends are able to make things bearable, even wonderful. They take your mind off things of no import and let it focus on the stuff that really matter - like happy and laughter-filled relationships. Friends keep you hopeful, and in a world that has suffered several tragedies, that counts for a lot. To have hope means having the strength and resolve to endure and surpass obstacles. It is because of friends that, in the midst of adversity, people are able to move on. Their support and their love help you continue on arduous journeys and laugh off problems. I once was told that true friends are people who, when you stumble and fall, will pick you up and say, "Ta

Happy new year! A good friend of mine has inspired me to blog. The humble farm boy has always been the more tech-savvy of us two. Takes me a while to catch on or at least be willing to. I also have a multiply blog but then they say that's so 2007. In any case, the way things are done change, people change. And it's 2010, time to tweak some things in my life to make it better. I am looking forward to more beautiful, wonderful and positive experiences in 2010. I am certain that 2010 has in store for me a lot of smiles, laughter, friendships, peace and love. I am sure many of my dreams will be realized this year. The last year had been intense and, well, difficult. My mother's passing last August was a hard one to take - I'm not even sure I have processed that fully yet. A lot of things have changed and a lot more have been changing. But then such is life. But despite the challenges, the sadness and the changes, life remains good. I have a healthy body, a sound mind, and a